It had been God's Grace all along...

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If pain, guilt, fear,worry, and suffering overcome you everyday, what would you do ?

Would you go out and have drinks with friends to wash the pain away? (sadly, it doesn't)
Would you party all night to distract yourself?

Would you do all those other things BEFORE praying and actually going to God first?

Sadly, I used to. But in the midst of the pain, I saw how undeserving I was to be blessed this way.



God's grace...
Yesterday was my first day of discipleship.I left in the middle of an FOC game, much to the dismay of some of my friends, but I was happy they understood and let me go without forcing me to stay a bit longer...which was quite uncommon for them.

God's grace...
For the most part of the day, it had been pouring hard. I had always hated running on errands if it entailed even the briefest exposure to rainwater. I have never liked rain that much. But to prevent me from backing out or postponing, the rain stopped for a short while, just so I could go.

God's grace...
I had been praying for this to happen...for a year, to have someone to listen to me while showing me the right path towards God. I opened another "new blog" recently (after so many blogs) and had it imported to my Notes in Facebook....A good friend that I had tagged (who has only been a member quite recently) saw my very first entry. He saw my cry for help. And that's how it all started...

God's grace...
Some boyfriends would complain. Even if mine gets to spend quality time with me (not tired from work or hurrying to go to work) only on off days, he let me go. He supported my decision to walk with God...and it was his off day yesterday.

God's grace...
I'm weak before sin because I am human. I will always be as long as I'm "in this flesh".True, my discipler said, that I cannot do all this by myself. Temptation is harder to resist when you walk down the road of darkness alone. And now I do not get to tread unguided, blind and vulnerable. I have my discipler who would embrace me even if I sinned, not castigate me, condemn or shun me, but rather help me shift and refocus my way to God.


I abandoned God. But He never left me.Instead, He gave me His grace...to survive, and to come back to His loving arms once again.

Patient Pain and Anesthesia- Can Pain Really Do Us Some Good?

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I came across this old entry in the Freakonomics blog. While I still ponder over the article, I wish to hear from others about their views.

"Most doctors still believed it was only pain that kept patients alive through the trauma of operations. System failure due to shock was a frequent cause of death during surgery, and the loss of sensation was believed to make it more likely. A screaming patient, however tormented, had a better prognosis than a limp and lifeless one. …"

Read more about it here: Is Pain a Moral Good?

Book or Movie?

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Will post something about Angels and Demons later...For now, I need to rescan the book. There were points where I was totally blank and zero...I know, I'm such a loser to have caught a movie this late...I've only been a bum for 2 days.

a nurse orientee's transition to Probe

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We're like a bunch of eggs waiting to hatch ..show the world what we can do and can be once we're out of our shells.

But it can be a darn scary world out there.

We'll never know who would crack us open before we actually do...and then put us in the fire.



We'll never know when one of us would crack under pressure and just give up.


Or worse...*kidding*

And some of them are just out there to get us...



And (some unfortunately) step on us...


But no matter how much beating and frying we get...

We must always strive to find balance within our *beaten and/or fried* selves...



After all, THERE IS A GOOD SIDE TO IT...



Camaraderie and Fun
Love


and making sure we don't end up like these....

hehe



Have a happy hatching~~!!



A Season of Change

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Two years ago, I was a fresh out of college, excited about what life had for me. I didn't bother carrying a very comprehensible career map, knowing that when life starts kicking me in the bum again, it wouldn't be a very hard blow on me.I could always re-sketch the map and do some re-routing. In the course of two years, I remade my map almost five times. I wasn't able to go to med school, I wasn't able to work as a nurse within a year...the list goes on. I had to be flexible. That was the foundation of the plan.

But sometimes, life can be very cruel. There are people and things that you hold so dear but life wouldn't spare you. There are no special considerations. It would touch every aspect possible. Hit or miss...as long as it fired.
Here I am, still trying to dust my knees and heal the wounds. I had been beaten badly again...so slowly, I wanted to give up. It took me a very long time to realize that I had let go of my Lifeline, my Hope in Everything, My Light, My Saviour...I had forgotten, rather, postponed praying to get more sleep,more time in my hands to spare for work, my friends and my boyfriend. I forgot that God was above all of them. I had forgotten Who was really important to me!

A recent fight with someone dear to me became my wake up call. In the midst of tears and pain, I had to get a magnifying glass to look closely at my map again. Retracing the routes, I realized that God was almost always missing. I wasn't able to include Him in most of my map. And on those routes, I had always seen dark and empty roads...

Right now, I'm trying to start again. I would be glad if someone offered discipleship and guidance.

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